Tuesday, October 18, 2011

The Process: Part I

How personal does one get on their blog? My philosophy has always been to be an open book, but there are some things that just don't go up on the blog for privacy reasons.... I think we can all relate to that. However, the Lord has been placing on my heart that I need to share a little about "The Process" of how Baby Thurston came to be... Josh and I becoming parents... (also as a memory book for us)


When God gives us desires, he reminds us in his word that he will give us these desires if we delight ourselves in him (Psalm 37:4). This verse often frustrated me in the process of trying for our sweet little baby Thurston... I thought well if it's a desire then shouldn't it just HAPPEN!?!?!

Josh and I decided that God was leading us to start "trying" at a certain point this past year and when it didn't happen the first months... I really struggled. I mostly struggled internally, but really took it to God via a lot of my journal entries and prayers. I thought...

How could this be? 
We are doing EVERYTHING we can to do this "right" and yet nothing...?? 
Am I barren??!!

God opened my eyes BIG time when I went to a physical in June of last year.... it was a breakthrough moment for me. My doctor was wonderful and we talked about my hopes for a child, and she shared the average window it takes to conceive (I was well within that window). She also shared that medically, I was in perfect condition to carry a child.

So, medically everything was ABSOLUTELY perfect. So, what was my deal?? It wasn't MY deal to CONTROL. It was God's timing that was missing.

{The Process: Part II to come tomorrow}

I want to encourage you today... God's more than able to handle our questions. He wants us to ask him hard things, because it draws us closer to him!!!! :)

10 Beautiful comments!:

Jessie Szmanda said...

Beautiful Ria. I have really learned everything comes on God's timing. So happy for you two!

Lauren said...

this is fabulous...and will be such an encouragement to so many others! God's timing is ALWAYS perfect...even when we can't see it!

Marcy XOXO said...

This was so beautiful to share Ria!!! So happy for you!

LC said...

I'm so happy you've decided to share this!

J and A said...

I'm excited for part 2. Thanks for sharing. :)

Jessica said...

Thank you for sharing! I feel like I'm stuggling right now, trying to accept that now isn't the right time for my husband and I to start our family. I have to remember that God's plan is THE plan :)

The Presutti's said...

Just found your blog! Congrats on your pregnancy! This blog really touched my heart. God does have his timing for our lives. Can't wait to get to know you! Your photos are amazing also!!

Taylor

thepresuttis.blogspot.com

Mrs. S said...

I am so glad you wrote this today. I have been really struggling with this as I like to be in control of everything as well.

CNM said...

Thank you so much for your post. My husband and I have been trying for over a year and have recently started fertility tests. It is so scary, but I am so thankful that I can rely on God through this journey. It's so hard to remember that control isn't ours. Thanks for the reminder.

And congratulations on your little blessing!

Jade said...

Thank you for sharing, I enjoyed reading it.